part of current life..

I am sitting in a cafe,with my cousins,in malacca..there is WiFi here and everyone is looking at their smartphones,uploading pics and checking in our location in FB.commenting and liking each other posts even though we are just in front of each other.this....is our generation. :)

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i am now listening to Amazing Grace by Il Divo..
i somehow just like their version a lot.. =)
it sounds so peaceful..

in one more month, i will be heading back to UTP and begin my last year as a university student.
so much more to do but i don't feel ready at all.
i sometimes think i seriously need to make some plans for the future but it feels so early now..
not when i still have a final year project in the way.
things just don't feel like the end yet..
stepping into the real adult life is gonna be scary..at least to me.

as for now, i am working hard on my cards..
it's tiring but i can really do this for a long time..
and i just thought of some ideas to make for my friends for the coming happenings. =)
so gonna try it out tomorrow..
so yeah...science or art? laugh out loud.
sigh..

i have been busy with tzu chi activities too..
being a part time volunteer is really...satisfying.
it's not like i have got myself many, many friends from it but just being there, doing the stuffs makes me feel good.
it's the part where u actually feel that u are doing something in your life.
working and earning money don't make me feel like that.
and recently, no, to be more general, this whole year, i have gotten many chances to struck a new friend again and again.
so i did get what i hoped for after all.
i hope that i will get to know more new friends this year and i did!
that's something to be grateful about! =)
i am glad how certain things took a better turn..i am really grateful for that.
i still feel that my life is lack of something.. (haha..i believe i know what the something is.)
but then again, i am actually doing well and quite a happy girl now.
of course, life can always be better but..for now, it is the comfy times..
and for that, i wanna thank everyone for just being there and for appearing in my life.

it's a cold night..
gonna be a caterpillar for tonight!hehe..
it's the holiday season for Malaysia!
i don't like being in the jam but...the jam means merry and gathering.
i am glad ppl are gathered to celebrate and not to war or suffering.
happy holidays!

Hullo..My abandoned blog.

sigh.
there were many, MANY times that i clicked on my blog and then the new post but ended not blogging anything.
it is not like i have nothing to blog about.
i guess i am just...lazy? *guilty*
so i hope u don't mind if i just cramp everything in this one post. teeheee....

first of all!
the windshield of my car was hit by a stone and it must have accurately hit a crucial spot of it because it cracked the whole piece of glass within a second.

how very unlucky..but within the unlucky-ness, i was also lucky cause i was not alone.
i had my friend with me.
and together we embark on this epic glass-cracking-flying-shaking journey from somewhere-near-Pusing to Bercham.
the journey should be around 35-40minutes.
so first, we shattered it to make a big hole for me to drive.
honestly, the process was no honeymoon cause we were by the road and we were girls.
i was worried that some random thieves or drunk man will just stop and snatch our bags.
and the sky was grey and the clouds were full with water.
so yet another lucky-ness, there were no thieves or drunk man and the clouds were on our side. phew~~

the big hole!!this was the best we could do..we had to deal with random dropping pieces of glass along the way.
and we laughed whenever one fell down.hahahahha!
oh another thing, actually, taking pictures during such a time made me feel such a weirdo.
it was like "aiseh, cermin sudah pecah wei!and it is gonna freaking rain but u still take pictures. =.="
but this incident was too epic for me that i had to take a few as memories and so that i can put them here in my blog. lol. (gosh...society nowadays...)
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and so, we drove slowly back.
we braced through the strong wind, the threatening dark clouds, big lorries passing by (they made such strong wind that it shook the glass.haha.), a little bit of rain, and the highway; with laughter, me wearing a cool pair of shades, and the both us telling each other this was such an epic day.
oh yeah, i forgot to back up the story.
we were actually otw back from my uni as i went there to hand in my final report for my internship.
that's why we were so far away from home..
(urgh, my face is super ugly in the picture.ngeee...)

moving on to next happening!
so i completed the four classes for Tzu Chi and went Penang the other day.
and i am now officially a Tzu Chi Volunteer!
i wear the gray shirt with mummy. =)
(there are some sort of rankings in Tzu Chi but i am so lazy to explain it here..lol)
anyway..being in Tzu Chi does not straight made me someone very nirvana.
i am still just a human that makes many mistakes through my actions, words, and thoughts.
i am learning to be a better human in order to gain peace within me..
and honestly, doing volunteer work is so much more fun than working.
i'll attach a few pics. =)

awesome souvenirs!!

mummy~ =)

a Buddha potrait made by many, many photos. amazing piece of art!

our logo.

Bercham fella!! (not my photo. =) )

Ipoh lang!! (not my photo as well.=) )

okay! moving on!

Zyin has gone back to US. =( sad.

but i will see her soon, i guess.

and by that time, we will be graduates.

goodness!!! 

leeann is back though, from Ireland. =)

August is here and September will come soon.

and when it comes, it also means the long sem break of most of my friends will end, including me.

i am going back to books, lecture notes, assignments, tests, and exams.

i can't believe i left uni for so many months.

the internship felt like a dream.. =.=

probably cause i WAS dreaming during internship..

lol!

okay...what else do i have to blog about...hmmm.........

that's all for the happenings, i guess.hahaha!

i should go sleep..it's 1.30am.

nah, Anna, a long blog post to compensate for my long absence.teeheeeee.... =D

sigh. i wish i can have them.
i wish.

i really like this palette from Chanel.
part of their spring items. i totally love the colours! totally!! (>.<)

this Bobbi Brown palette is really pretty too!!!
everything i need is here! i sigh when i saw this..it's so pretty.

this Clarins blusher is really pretty too! i think the peach colour will be the best. =)
the texture seems to be really smooth and the colours are just so sweet.

they are like big crayons and the colour seems pretty natural on lips.
i will need to find a replacement for my Revlon lip tint since it is discontinued here.
really wanna try one!! but of course..this is a pricey replacement. bububu~~

leather, the naked screen showing the mechanics, bling bling around it..
i want!!! *muka sangat mahu*

the bottle is pretty. teeheee... no i don't want this. i just think the bottle is really pretty. haha!


lastly, a cute picture!!

pout pout pout pout pout!!!!
cause i can't have those things up there!!! pout!
(>.<)

majestic..i totally fell for this photo when i first saw it.
the feeling is just incredible..

you can find the simplest yet most meaningful phrases from Winnie the Pooh.

and i absolutely love everything about Harry Potter.
the books, the story, the characters, the casts, and even though there are a lot to complain about the movies, i still like them just because they are Harry Potter. bluek. i know, i am too big of a fan already. haha.
i really wanna watch the last movie in cinema AGAIN!

one wrong click.

i made one wrong click in my Google+ account and my photos in my blogs are ALL gone.
while i am re-posting the pictures for my Paperer's Cards,
i decided not to do so for my personal blog.
hence, deleted all 200+ of posts.
i must admit, it wasn't that easy of a decision.
i always thought that i can read back my old posts and see how much i have grown or changed.
but the damage is done, and sometimes, it is better to just let go and start anew.
so yeah, deleted all of them!
the important thing is i am still around and there will be posts still.
forget the history. it's the present i want to blog about! :)

Furball!!!!!!

last

guess what???
this is my last week of internship! *thunders roaaaaaar*
now, i do feel the "graduation effects" but only a teeny-wheeny little bit..
sad huh?
some would find internship fun, packed with life-long learning and etc.
i do get some pretty good lessons throughout my 32 weeks of internship but erm..
i am honestly bored.bored to the skin and bone.
and maybe, i finally have a proof to tell myself; i do not want to work as an engineer.
the question that comes after this is, then what the hell do i want to do after i grad?
*silence*
i will not answer or go in circles with that question for now. no, not now.
but anyway, i am so HAPPY that i am finishing internship!!! *big grins*
now, u can't blame me for being THAT happy about finishing internship..
it's not that i am that big of a lazy bum or i am such a immature young adult..
i am just so done with it.seriously.
but hey, it's not like my work was super stressful or super hard or my supervisor and mentors are whipping my butt while i work.
no. in fact, i get a lot of freedom. a lot of freedom.
i get to slack from time to time, to read a bit, chat, walk around.....
and even though i was given such a freedom, i wasn't happy.
i think i know why. i felt useless there.
what i was good in, was not utilize.
i guess, despite all the thoughts of being humble and invisible and blablabla, part of me will always want to shine out from the rest but no, i didn't get the chance this time.
that's okay.. at least i managed to be helpful with all the random tasks.
and u know, at work, what i have been asked to do most is language consultation; English.
it's something quite funny when u have your mentor calling u and u were expecting a new task for the last week, only to hear him asking u is it "special thank" or "special thanks". LOL.
and really, i don't exactly know how this started.. i think i have a face that shows, "dude, i am good in English. consult me. ask me." *smirk*
no... my English is only as good as....this.
oh another thing i get consulted a lot is actually computer stuffs. microsoft words and excel.
so i guess i don't know thaaaaaaaat little about computer stuffs after all. *grins*
all in all, i am still grateful to the ppl there because i know, i was meant to be there for some reasons which i still do not know what are they now. it's okay, i will come to know when the time comes.
i am happy that i still have 10 weeks of break before sem starts.
i am so gonna drown myself with card-making, anime, and books.
oh yeah, let me confess about something. it's my last week of internship and i have been reading.everyday.
no, i feel no guilt about it cause hey, i am dumped there with no tasks and projects anymore.
so yeah, i'll read all i want and no guilt at all. bluek!

wanna share something here..

i agree.. because this fear is one of those that lingers in my heart. all the time.
u'll know what i mean if u have experienced the pain when u were putting all your heart full of sincerity for the things u do, for the person.. only to be acknowledged as nothing special.
it really tore down the self confidence part..sigh.
it probably became the excuse for being ignorant as well..
but i do believe that this should not close the door to my heart.
i will keep it open. closing it won't do anything..
because someday, there will be one who will care that i care.. who will care about me more than i care about myself.
yeah, i believe that.

wee~~~~
tomorrow is another reading day! *grins*
(i am straining my eyes by reading on my phone..haha. who wants to give me an iPad 2? LOL.)