walk walk walk...
keep walking in my life..
loads to see, never ending of stuffs to learn..
brain is loaded these days..but loaded with what, i don't exactly know..
and actually, i think i just need sleeps that are dreamless..let the little brain rest for real.
so dreams...i don't want u to come for at least one night, even if u are a sweet one.

i don't know what is right and wrong..can't think properly these days.
feels like...something is stuck in the pipes of my head.
no, maybe i just don't want to think..
hoho...lazyness!
hmm...i hope i get my belgium chocolates...
haha!

and i miss my yum cha sessions with the girls..
oh well..to the bed!

these days, i am really beginning to wonder why do i like chatting with ppl who are basically complicated humans?
=.=
sweat Zwei, major sweat at yourself!

to treat one with the care and sincerity from the heart also means, allowing myself to get hurt.
and i am beginning to wonder if it is worth it.
no...i guess i just care for some ppl who might not even give a damn about me.
who just puts up with me out of their little kindness and showing me smileys that might not even be sincere.

but then again, i think i am happier being the silly girl,
hoping that if i truly care for someone, that someone will eventually know and i will earn a true connection.
one tiny little stuff from them and i will be so freaking happy!
and i will forget all those disappointments.
urgh.......seems so silly!
confused with why am i putting up with this circles.

......................................i probably know the answer.

i care about them a lot more than i thought.
sigh.

smile.

today is one those days where i get a bit of luck in the things i did..
like..
it was raining when i got to jusco so i hoped to park my car indoor..
even after losing the first two chances within the first 5min, i found a space the next minute. =)
with no competition.

grabbed myself a new BB cream that turns out pretty nice and,
chose the right shade of lip balm.
there is something strangely satisfying and exciting when u got yourself the right cosmetics.
haha..

heard a short clip of a lovely song on TV but couldn't figure out the title =(
nvm..later went FB and someone posted it.
and i got my song.
can't stop listening to it now..teeheeeeeeee....

and if i am to include the little conversation i had in the very early hours of today,
well...today is a bliss then... =)

thank you for all these little happy events.

so i miss a few ppl tonight.. :)

and it has begun

if i wrote this post a few days ago,
my first line would have been "i have a freaking annoying and super itchy mosquito bite!".
LOL.
UTP has poisonous mosquitoes and one bite could cause serious itch.
but since i wrote this today,
i guess i would say, haven't been this sick in awhile and it is miserable.haha!
haven't had fever for awhile and darn it, shivering with the cold is so no fun!
gave me sleepless nights though sleep is what i need the most now..
so in the end, since i have no class tmr, i decided to come home and rest..
seen the doctor, took the med (antibiotic was the key to make everything better) and will sleep a lot..
and really, really sleep properly..

so my final year has begun.
i am not exactly a final year student yet cause by law, i am still a 3rd yr 2nd sem student..
but i am finishing the 3 last sems in a year, so it is my final year in uni.
so in a way, i am a final year student. (complicated betul.)
anyway, i do see how my 10months away from uni changed my perspective a little.
or i should be more specific, internship.
i could definitely understand the purpose of applications better than before,
and also, i have a different perspective about studying now..
which i hope it will turn out good and give better results.
so final year will be final year..gotta enjoy the fact that it is a final year.
and gotta appreciate every little thing, good and bad, of it too.
honestly, i can't expect the whole year to be good eh? that won't be life.lol.
may the distant ones be closer and may the closer ones stay as close.

phew~ i am sleepy already...
well, being sick is a good excuse to sleep like i don't give a damn. teeheee~
oh yeah, i miss a few ppl.. :)

night!

i can't believe i dreamed of u.
in that way!

someone breaking the barriers?

so much to say but i only managed to give a deep sigh every time.
feelings are all mixed up into a dough.
i shall just visit the dreamland and enjoy with my friends of the little world i own.