i'm leaving here.

hello bloggie.
looks like i have successfully abandoned u for another whole month.
no, nearly 2 months.
*grins*
plain lazy and there is always something else better to do, that's all.

it's gonna be 2am and i am here awake.
i am gonna regret this tmr morning.

let's write random phrases here..
"i feel like crying sometimes even if there is no particular reason to do so. sadness from previous tragedy, perhaps?"
"they say it doesn't matter, everyone stands an equal chance. yet, they do things that classify us. why? because it's nthg personal, just business. well, then we can do the same!"
"i really forgot how it is to be in relationship. everything feels like a dream, even today seems like a dream."
"when i kept talking the same person over and over again, i get scared."
"i do not know what i do not know. adults and educators, pls note this."
"yeah, i feel pretty empty.sometimes."


goodnight. 

little moments

one night, went to have a late tea time with Miss J and Miss L.
the both of them ordered tea and coffee,
in which they came with a small piece of cookie.
the tea came first and Miss K said let's share the tiny piece of cookie.
she broke into two but there were 3 of us.
i said i am okay without it but Miss J then broke hers to a smaller half and gave me with a big grin.
i grin back.
then came the coffee, and there was another piece of cookie.
Miss J broke it into half and gave me with a grin.
i gave a wider grin and in the heart, i felt loved.

happy MaMa's day

Mothers are such magical ppl.
they play one of the biggest roles in our life and being a female myself, i hope i have the chance to be a Mother too someday.
Mothers have such heavy responsibilities and life has mold them to be ppl with a strong will but a caring heart.
we all have our reasons to say "my Mother is the best!" :)
me Mama is a tough lady; seen the world and could say "i've been there before" to many ppl.
and i think she is most blessed to have my Papa as her life partner :)
Mum, i love u everyday in my life.

so i am done with final exams for my second last semester.
and as usual, it feels like lalalalalala when the papers are done.
no trumpets and cheers and drunk elephants running amok to celebrate the end of exams.
haha.
though i always imagine i would feel that way when i am done with my last paper; every single semester.
and every single semester, i feel simply nothing about it.
just tired and especially this semester, extremely tired and extremely relieved!
well, relieved for one week and then new issues will welcome themselves next semester.
and that will be my very final semester as an Undergraduate student.
i am nervous about it..because it means it's time to think about future.
it's time to set myself straight, have some goals in life and set a guideline to what path i will take.
AND! friends are coming home too! :)
but one darling friend is leaving as well.. :(

well, gotta pack and go home! *cough cough* *sniff sniff* <------- weak me is gonna be sick.heh.

when will i ever learn to be less vulnerable..
it's always like this;
endure endure endure then boom! volcano.
ignores everyone.
pour all the lava.
and then, comes the mess..
the awkwardness..
and feeling totally out of the circle.
and then start thinking, was it really my own fault after all?
dilemma.

and i have officially walked this earth for 23 years. cheers and blessed.

and i'll say it is a bittersweet one.

When one feels good being here..I guess this is one of those blessed moments in my life. Great friends are really great companions; just look at my parents and their friends :) They taught me that real good friends does not need to be many, just a few and distance does not make things dull. :)

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